"Manoy"

Yesterday we had our communication skills training with other supervisors.
It was fun and i really learned something. Especially for me who really needs big improvement in communications. Sheng, who was our trainor suggested to have our own journal... I remember my blog site here. Now when I opened my PC I visited my site now and here I am writing my 2nd post after 10months.

Well, I'm still the Hopeless Romantic girl.
Still trying to express my feelings to this guy. We are good friends and we have the same sports which is badminton. I call him "Manoy" and he calls me "Inday". His voice is a love song to me. He has this magic hands that fixed my PC. I don't know what's with you that made me like this. I was asked impromptu with our friend if it's ok with me he has lots of girls? I was shocked I know it was just a joke but gosh... it was on the spot... i was so transparent that I just said... "ok ra" then he looked at me... what's that look? whew!

Last week, I was really hurt when my friend told me that "Manoy" asked him about the necklace given by my friends to me last august. I found out he gave it to this girl who is a good friend of mine too. Eventhough this girl is into relationship already but still they have possibilities to fall in love. It really hurts.

Anyways, last Wednesday he went to my house to fix my PC. With his magic hands less than 30mins he fixed it. Too bad I wanted to spend time with him. It's okey he still needs to rest.

Can you bump my head to the wall? It seems like im so desperate to have him and to have a boyfriend already. whew!

At least we are friends and I can count on him...

love yah noy....

Hidden Feelings of a Hopeless Romantic

So many things that I wish I could say just to your face. So many things that swallow what I'm feeling, that we should and maybe we shouldn’t. That maybe we should always be like this and some day that we should be closer then what we are now. Maybe we shouldn’t because im scared of what you might really think.

Scared to say all the things that I really wish I could, scared to reveal things that I know that I should keep suppressed. Im sad that your not here, sitting talking laughing with me. Scary to think that all I really want right now is to be held in loving arms, can you supply them? To be kissed by gentle lips, will you do that?

Hidden feelings of a hopeless romantic, all this girl really wants in life is to be loved more than her dog loves her. All she wants is to be happy no matter where I am, living in slums or in a palace, and I want him to know it that in the end who ever I end with that I will stand with them through whatever it will be whatever to come… a vulnerable heart of a hopeless romantic… almost wishing she wouldn’t have posted these words..

Hoping that she wont be rejected… hoping she wont have her heart handed back to her in pieces… pls don’t hand my heart back….